Sunday, July 4, 2010

Undefined Love


 When you thought you had a chance with love, it all comes breaking down with just a few words said. Not knowing it could be true or not, whether it's either of the two, you just suddenly step back and runaway regretting those you thought to be special times then blaming yourself by saying "why did I fell in love with you?" Stupidity is the best answer we can think of. Depressing yourself by saying "I don't want to fall for you!" is not an option. You can't just control or hide what you really feel for that "someone" it shows automatically.
I hate this gooey feeling called "love" the more you expect, the more you are hurt and the hard part is you can't show it. It’s contagious and irreversible once you’re caught; it’s a curse that can’t be cured. Why do we have to fall in love? It’s the biggest question that has many answers but what I’ve learned is that it is part of the human life cycle. We can’t avoid it, everyone must go through it. If it’s that easy to explain then why is it hard for one to cope with it?
If you like someone, why is it hard for us to tell them? It's the best thing to do but difficult for us to accomplish because we fear "rejection" then why are we waiting? If we know there's no chance? Maybe that feeling called "happiness" is one word that best describes it all. The times when you're together is like a puzzle that has been completed, the emptiness is filled with enjoying moments when you're with him in spite of his mistakes and annoying attitude. We can't help jealousy overcome us even if we don't have the authority but what can we do? It's the way love takes us and tells us. We keep on hurting ourselves with those obvious moments, it’s like they’re telling us that we have no chance but deep inside you don’t care as long as we’re happy there is nothing bad about it. Those fantasies about me + you = love is inspiring yet when it comes to reality it is me + you = never, because your thinking that maybe he doesn’t feel the same about you. Those moments might just be nothing or you’re just pushing yourself to someone who doesn’t deserve you. Telling yourself to move forward is hard to do because it all flashes back to when you’re with him.
I keep on telling myself before that love is not worth taking seriously because it’s just like playing a game but when I experienced it, it’s that difficult to deal with especially when you thought you fell in love with the wrong or right person.

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