New Responsibility = Additional Stress!

       There was that time when got elected as class president, I thought it's just simply as directing people to do a task then I just stay relaxed but when school activities started, meetings rushed in and pressures from the teachers popped, I was going crazy all over the place. Running back and forth, even sidewards  just to accomplish a task, monitor my officers and my members plus the pressure of a senior watching my steps and decisions. Those days were exhausting , it's like my body lacks energy to proceed. Damn! I regretted being the president although I have no choice, all votes were unanimous for my name i'm not bragging and all it was decided and I cannot back-out even if I wanted to. The worst part of being the president was catching and taking responsibility of your co-officer even if it was out of my league; being part of a Beauty Contest (BRAIN + BEAUTY) I didn't even possess those two, inspite of whatever reasons I say for an excuse it was not worth acceptable for some of my teachers and for everybody else. Once you've been pointed, there's no way out, especially for me of course because of my damn sense of obedience plus the pressure of my teachers and our seniors I wass left with my pride hurt and shattered.
     I never thought I would say yes when I don't know what the hell am I going to do. My teachers said it would be just easy posing and walking on the stage; Easy! what's so easy about showing my face on public, walking and posing like a statue, I'm not used to exposing myself on public especially with hundreds of people watching me.Then the day of the beauty contest started, I just calmed and didn't expect anything; i did my best and applied what our instructor told us on practice but stage fright is never gone. Although I didn't win anything on that night I can say that I'm proud of myself realizing that I have the GUT to do all those things even if I didn't expect it.

      This school year I was demoted to being the Vice President of our class, which for me is a relief because in this position ít's not as exhausting as being the president BUT! it lead to a more complicating, pressuring and stressing kind of a job because I was elected as being the SBO Treasurer of the Whole Student Body Organization, imagine that! the whole school, the students it's like being a part of the office! Damn! although it's fun holding a big amount of money with the feeling of a millionaire for a while is not as enjoying as it is. During our Acquaintance party I was the one collecting money from room to room (really from 1rst year to 4th year) going up and down using the stairs gave me a strong legs but it was an agony the stress of calculating numbers even if it was simply plus and minus was horrific and going to the venue to pay the rent. The most difficult task was collecting money after the event to pay for the balance was difficult because going room to room to collect the money from the treasurers making excuses of no one paying is mind bugging! it's like they're just taking me that easy. Uurgh! I wish they realize that it's embarassing to go to the owner giving partial payments instead of giving the full amount. Oh well what can I do, I didn't think I could be a part of the Student Organization although I dreamed of becoming one. The pressures and stress from our president is annoying, I am trying to follow as hard as I can and manage my time of responsibility and studies well.

       I am not a superwoman to do everything at once but giving my best shot and not imagining the stress tied with responsibility will be helpful. I just wish I can do if not everything right but just acceptable in a way everyone sees my efforts.